With Bowie in tow, the stakes are elevated. I can't make any decision without considering the consequences and how it will affect her.
And so, in a twist of fate and a deviation from the original plan, I sit writing this blog post from a sunny cafe in Squamish as I'm back in Canada for the foreseeable future. You read that right. Yes, I'm back in Canada, back in Squamish. And as it turns out, I'm not alone...
Part of what made my experience at Maderas Village so great, was the people that flock to it. I met some really great folk, both that stayed there and lived there. I looked forward to sitting down to family-style dinners at the long table and engaging in hours of discussion. For whatever reason, I took on a healer role there. It made me wonder if that should be my path. Here I was dressing wounds, doling out painkillers, counselling, advising on physical therapy plans, and then playing shaman. Haha. Here comes that funny story I've been waiting to tell you about...
I want so badly to be a surfer, yet I am so fearful.
In November 2015, I sold my house in Canada, quit my corporate job, liquidated my belongings, said goodbye to my friends and family and set off on a solo journey to find a place to settle in Central America to open a little surf/yoga lodge. I've been on the road now for over a month. Since I've been gone, I've updated every other social media account with my status, with the exception of one, my LinkedIn account.
I think you go through the same mental game anytime you are on a path to healing. You are changed when you come out the other side. It makes you want to give back.
The day that I decided to get into "planning/work" mode, the rain stopped and the sun burned through the clouds. The rain felt like an omen. It made me pay attention and forced me to make a commitment to myself to "get to work".
While I should be of mindful of what I'm spending my money (and time) on, I also need to relax and not let it rule me, as reminded in another quote from The Alchemist. "We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand". I just need to keep on the path to my destiny. No big deal. Ha.
I sit here in Costa Rica, a beginner again, but I know I am not alone. I have the love and support of those at home. And home is only a click away.
The only one you can control is you, so choose to only put love out into the world. It is said that the dove is a symbol of love and peace. So, be a dove.