I think you go through the same mental game anytime you are on a path to healing. You are changed when you come out the other side. It makes you want to give back.
The day that I decided to get into "planning/work" mode, the rain stopped and the sun burned through the clouds. The rain felt like an omen. It made me pay attention and forced me to make a commitment to myself to "get to work".
While I should be of mindful of what I'm spending my money (and time) on, I also need to relax and not let it rule me, as reminded in another quote from The Alchemist. "We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand". I just need to keep on the path to my destiny. No big deal. Ha.
I sit here in Costa Rica, a beginner again, but I know I am not alone. I have the love and support of those at home. And home is only a click away.
The only one you can control is you, so choose to only put love out into the world. It is said that the dove is a symbol of love and peace. So, be a dove.
That mid-yoga thought reminded me how I’ve ignored that stickiness in the past. When I’ve pushed through things in my life, where I should have taken notice instead: relationships, decisions, health, etc.
2017 was just 2 years away. I only had 2 years to make that vision real, or at least get started on it. Waiting around wasn't going to do anything for me. I didn't want to regret that I had never put myself out there. I needed to mix up the formula. I need to switch this up.
Sitting here right now, all I feel is excitement. I'm looking forward to the exploration that comes with starting something new. The house sale was the big piece needed to set my plan in motion; to leave Squamish, BC, Canada and start a life for myself and my Peruvian mutt, Olas, in either Panama or Costa Rica, Central America. I was born to live in the sun, that is no secret. I'm happiest with salty hair and sand beneath my toes. You know when you can tell that the Universe is on your side, because everything feels so effortless. That's how i feel with this decision. it's been really easy, smooth and fast.